Zombie Apocalypse Realization

So now I am in my final semester of grad school. I don't know if it is the time or place or age that I am but I am starting to realize more things about myself which are alarming and worth reconsidering. Which is very great news! So do you know the zombie apocalypse scenario? " So my good friends from the grad school have a whole plan "mapped out" about what they will do during the precious hours/minutes after the zombie apocalypse hits. While I, gratefully included in their master plan, had decided that I would not want to survive the zombie apocalypse and would throw myself at the zombies and be turned early - in the hopes that they would get away while I was being eaten. My knee-jerk reaction is that I wouldn't want to live a wasteland filled with zombies with the possibility of loosing everything. My knee-jerk reaction is that I wouldn't want or accept change. But HOW SHITTY IS THAT!! SUPER! SUPER SHITTY! Life is what you make of it and who you choose to make it with. I am sorry I was going to give up on myself,yall and life. How shitty! The truth is even if it was the dark abysmal existence of the post apocalyptic zombie world - we would make it worth living. Where ever there is one, there is hope. I would proudly fight beside yall and keep fighting for myself and for you in your absence as I hope you would do for yourself and me. I make things bad or worse by how I choose to think about them. Bad things happen and that can't be ignored, but I can make a decision about what to do after. I have the power.