Still Under construction

I have begun to see and try to change the way that I behave and think and interact with the world. Starting meditation has been really helpful. Through meditation, I have had several interesting and powerful images come to mind which relate greatly to my state. Bathing in the moonlight - breathing in the beauty Being surrounded by water - wading in it or struggling and sinking The calm and repetitive waves - lapping against the dock Wading in a River - the water and thoughts rush around and over my body to leave me in a continuous cycle And more recently - the image of a tight rope -- On the other side - fulfillment and happiness with myself I have finally gotten on top of the rope and am attempting to go for it. I find myself off balance and my foot slips - I am almost completely fall off but I recover. I take 3 labored, tiny steps forward. I slip again and look down (NEVER LOOK DOWN)